Yesterday was the worst day of my professional career. Everyone knows that the most important thing in my life is my ministry with my youth. I feel stuck between worlds. I am theologically a Confessional Lutheran. I worship in charismatic style like AoG. I attend for all intents and purposes a Baptist Graduate College. I feel tugged and pulled and that I don't really belong anywhere. The only place I really fit in is with my youth. When I am worshipping with them, in whatever way that takes shape (rock youth service, local service project, mission trip, prayer walk, bible study, museum trip) I feel like I am home. They are my sanctuary.
So when I come under assault by the youth for the most ridicules reasons I feel betrayed, wounded and like my home is on fire. I do nothing but try and give them the nicest jr/sr prom experience I can. That just isn't good enough for some people. I will not let a glorified dance wreck my life.
On Monday I intend to submit my letter of resignation as prom sponsor. Its time I focus on a better banquet and a better celebration in the next life.
I feel like I am trapped in a dark place and that I am running through shadows. Pray for strength and peace these next two weeks. I need my true friends on my side.
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